"You deserve it."

I've been thinking of the words used on me lately.

"You're fucking the worst girlfriend ever."

"You're so difficult to love."

"Go find someone who can accept your attitude everyday."

I never had anyone who would ever use such words on me. I've been forgiving & trying to forget all of the negative comments I get each time we argued. I've got the worst. 

I guess it was the last straw that I finally realised no matter how I try to forgive, these words will not stop coming. 

I've spent hours thinking why do I even deserve to be judge like that. To be compared with girls that I hadn't even seen. To always make me feel lousy & inferior. Nobody actually knows all these deep down has been affecting me a lot. I try to always convince myself he didn't mean this way but does anyone out there knows how much these words have cut me deeply?

Never on earth did anyone ever said such harsh & ugly words to say me. I've done nothing utterly wrong. The cut on my hand makes my heart break even more each time I've been reminded of. I wish you could understand my pain. Unfortunately no. This thus proven bout my decision. I've no reason to keep someone who always uses such words to discriminate me like I'm the worst person on earth, & not there for me when he's the reason why I'm not eating.

Couldn't believe what you've said that night, but I'm not anyone to be judge with anyone else. You're not here to love.

& lastly, I don't deserve it. 

Now & forever?

I wish those hurtful words ever meant for me. I wish things never changed. I wish I'll never stop feeling important cos I've never knew I could mean so much. I wish someone would hear me out & understand me. I wish... to be a happier person. 

I'll stop wishing. 

Appreciative.

Rlly gotten me surprised when he told me he went town to acc his buddy to meet customer & bought me this when he came back to branch & pick me. <3 

Everyone finally made time for steamboat at Yong en's new place. Loving such gatherings once awhile & brought Debby to mingle there too. The boy came over after his event at work to join us & sent Debby and I home. 

This wk is too short. I'm on leave till nxt wk & I'm feeling anxious bout my cruise tmr alr!! Hoping its gonna be a good trip! 

Tokyo. Part 2.

I've come back for more photos. Before I forgot what to blog, I'm just gonna do a brief post.

Supper in the hotel with their best instant ramen:

They taste exactly the same as those ramen noodles selling in the stalls, how could that even happen! 

Don't understand why these jersey cost so much:

My virgin porter tote! :

Disney photos is not in this phone, laziest people doing the laziest way. Just some of the Disney snapshots I can offer for now:

 

GOODBYE! 

Tokyo. Part I

Shinjuku shopping:

Japanese girl found playing in the garden:

French bull deep sleeping in his owner's arms along the shopping malls streets:

Had a good break at Tokyo with baby. Everything else warmth my heart despite the freezing weather in Tokyo. Nothing beats the warmth he'll provide for me just to make sure I get enough warmth & my hands don't get too tired carrying our shopping bags. Thanks baby. (: Love你 

Reminiscing the kukup trip.

Was browsing though my photos & realised I didn't make time to post my kukup trip photos with the branch. It's been a couple of months back, but that's when everything was picture perfect. It's the first time we had a branch outing overnight & it's outta Singapore. We've been anticipating:

Photos are not in order:

The awesome night view that the fireworks took place & when we lit up our lantern with all our wishes:

The best photo taken in the trip:

It couldn't have been better. So proud to say I've lit my own fireworks alr! 

Happy birthday huangliting!

What a fulfilling wkend spent with my loved ones. Wkends has been forward looking without fail. 

Go to work as usual for that half day of work after being sick for 2 days. Thanks to the boy for rejecting his meet up with friends & stay home just to take care of me. Feeding me medicine everywhere we go after meals & to listen to my whining. 

Medication concussed me the whole day. I've been feeling drowsy & it feels like I can slp forever. Sent me to work in the morn, he came to pick me for lunch & bought cough syrup that ain't drowsy cos the one I've got is rlly bad. 

& off we rush go for huangliting's birthday dinner! 

@ Superstar K Korean BBQ: 

This hotpot egg omelette is too yummy!:

K session @ Cash Studio:

Happybirthday to you ma love! (:

Keith & girlfriend came to surprise the cake & we sang till like 3am. The boy initiated to send my friends home & the huangliting has to stay at jurong. Rlly thankful for him just to accompany me attending to my friends. Seeing him treat my friends as his own rlly makes me smile. & he does everything without complaining. Loving this baby.

It doesn't just end there, baby agreed to bring Debby to the petfarm. Brought the dog to play her usual balloons & meet new friends which she got very traumatised by the huge huskies. My poor dog. :( 

This is her after her balloon games with baby & 2 dogs chasing after her wherever she go:

Started raining again, bathed the dog & went for dinner. So drained but I'm still happy seeing whatever he's doing for me. Couldn't ask for more to be pampered by him like that. Thanks baobei. (: 

October.

Sucks to be back work after ph. It feels likka Monday & I totally don't feel like working. What's making it worse, I'm feeling unwell at work. 

I've been craving from Krispy Kreme for the longest time since I got back from Korea. Have been pestering baby to bring me to get it but huangliting agreed to queue up for me while she's in town! So much love I'm so happy! Got baby to drive down to town to collect our donuts & stupid huangliting suggested to play kinect. 

So here are my donuts!!! :

Baby's been wanting to get his ps3 but I didn't expect it to be so soon. Just bought the whole console with their very expensive games(god-knows-why-are-they-so-expensive) over dinner. Thinking baby went insane after buying his ps3, he cab back to gardens to get more games before heading back. I was speechless. 

His damage that cost him at least 700 just for these:

Baby bought another game the day after. Really don't wanna think how much is he gonna spend on all these. Anws his ps3 was part of our ph leisure. Nba is so addictive but baby is a real cheater. 

Check out our hot controller!! :

Toyko, I'm coming for you so so soon!! ^^

Through the good & the bad & the ugly.

Babyboy is sick on a Saturday. Nothing else matters just to lie beside him & make sure he's fine. Can't wait for our Japan trip till the end of the month though. 

Made foxy wake him up the other day, FAILED: 

My babykaikai with his promise to me. (: