Where dyou go?

This morning I woke up missing someone. Someone whom left me couple of months back. Someone who said he's gonna be there so long as I love  him. Someone who said he has the patience for me but didn't want me to take it for granted. Someone who would drive a u-turn just to show me how beautiful the moon was that night when we went out for movie. Someone who never fails to back me up. So much more he did for me, encouraging me that work's ending soon & the little letters he'll write for me. 

I couldn't explain myself what happened in between but this man was gone & I rlly missed him. Right now it feels like I haven't been important & all that treatment was only for a show. Everything's changed. It no longer only loving & compromising make him fight for me. I wasn't love for I am, I was made to compare with girls I don't even know who are they which claim to be better than me. I know i may not exactly be the ideal girl guy's look for, but each time I love strongly & sadly, it fails me. 

I'm supposed to be the most understanding girl, who doesn't have temper & this made me rlly suffocating. I begin to realise nobody's there to back me when I don't feel good bout smth. Then I guess it was better to be left alone, at least I could let it out. At least my friends are there to hear my reasons. 

I couldn't stay with someone who takes lightly of us all the time each time we argue. This rs is too damaging to mention break up all the time, thus I've decided to do it once & for all. I'm tearing as i type this entry but it'll be for the better I'm sure. I'm sure.