They'll leave, eventually.

Last night was the time of my life I've come to realise whatever I thought would stay, wouldn't. No one is ever true to you & only you matter how ugly things have changed. So many years we've built this friendship for the longest time. Through the school days, the there-for-you times whenever someone is hit at their lowest times. Times when everything & anything that fails us, we always believed 3 of us doesn't change. 

Leaving me speechless when I was insulted with my honesty & my integrity. This is an argument that I wouldn't even bother to fight, bcos fighting would mean they won't understand you. Unfortunately no, they're suppose to be the ones who knows me inside out & knows what kind of person I alr am. I don't have to take extra effort to put on a pretense, I am always myself even at times I don't even feel like talking or just wanna be ridiculous. They know it all. They know exactly how Sharlene behaves and thinks, there is no reason why I've to explain myself for something I was accused of not feeling that way.

Everything has fallen. I was asked if the issues lies within myself. I gave my love to all that mattered to me, but look what I've gotten back in return. I'll never give my all like before anymore, it doesn't pay. Maybe the issues lies with me, maybe I'm not someone good enough to be. I thought I gave my all but I didn't. 

No one stays through the good & the bad times with you. You walk this ugly humanity path alone. Alone.