It's the blood that runs

It's lantern's festival with the family. Went to aunt's bungalow for celebration though she shifted in many years ago. 

Nai told me little couz brought her to sign extra phone line using her ic. Now she has extra line while couz took the phone to sell. I had to call up the untrackable couz cos I was so angry. Forever making granny worried & now cheating her. Sigh, but this is my granny. Forever so naive & soft hearted. 

Uncle's newly bought porsche in his garage. There are more outside his bungalow. 有钱人就是like that sigh:

Feels good to be back at nai's arms sometimes aft being so tired of work & sch. Smelling my hair & kissing me like a small girl makes me so pampered. Hehe

Oh Sulwhasoo, how I've loved you:

Sooooooore

I've been suffering from the "heatiness" for the past couple of days. 

"Short tongued" my customers due to the ulcer on my tongue. Then my throat got inflamed too. 

How much amount of water just doesn't help. 

But it's still not stopping me for waiting to eat my jb bkt for the longest time!! I love my colleagues for being so spontaneous with my cravings hehe:

We had the longest day. All thanks to fattykoh we just couldn't leave ksl & city sq. There's just so much shopping to be done. I went home to crash almost immed. 

Boyboy says hi while I was testing my fisheye camera:

Smtimes my aunts are so amazing. Typically the 三姑六婆:

Happybirthday!!! Finally your surprise was a huge success! Fatty & I got so tense hiding the plan & cake. Wishing you for the best start! :

So that day I got so tired... I dreamt that we were holding hands...:

Why so ham lah. :( 

Today is a thanksgiving day. I almost couldn't got up for work. I felt my throat is causing me to feel feverish. Thinking how the branch is not gonna function well, I still head to work to see if my condition gets better. I just couldn't talk more & swallowing saliva takes more effort. It just didn't get better. Couz got me my fave liangteh during lunch hour & got my lunch left at pantry. <3

Plus, customer was randomly asking if I had my lunch I said I don't quite feel like eating due to my throat. & she offered a pill for me to reduce the inflammatory. :') 

Fattykoh being a sweetie pie today too. She waited for me an hour when she could've gone home & just to walk to the train station with me aft my class ends. <3 <3 <3 

& then she just stays in the library to pack her messy bag for an hour. 

how to not love fatty!! :

Lastly,

Reminder: to get my anti inflammatory pills tmr. 

Gdnight! (: 

Domestics.

After much persuasion, I'm giving you another try. 

Loving how I could make use of GE2015 to sleep my day away especially to avoid the unhealthy pollution. Each time I allow myself ample time to rest like that, I feel alive again. 

Feeling proud to be part of GE2015:

My friend doing her thing again:

Darling girl just spent the late night with me in the living room just to wait for me to finish watching the election results. How silly:

This is what happens when I threaten my manager I might not come to work due to the intense close fight for punggol east: 

Had a super long day. Just wanna post my new pillow I bought at jb awhile ago. Can't wait to fall aslp with my new teddy tonight! Hehehe Gdnight! 

Sept birthday week

Exclusively invited to kaikai & jiajia' birthday party:

Kaikai with his 8th birthday cake:

I'm quite pissed with jiajia honestly. It took her half an hour when the kids left before sneaking out to eat her cake. This is my very first time seeing her after visiting her for the 3rd time. She was super shy she only showed us her butt in the beginning:

 

However it only took her awhile to see another side of her. You see her throwing her cake & sneezing like nobody's biz I was laughing like mad:

Happybirthdaygranny, how dyou like your flowers i picked for you this time round?:

Aunty brought all the photos albums for us as she wanted to renovate her house. So this was the few I selected: 

I was quite a vain child I've so many photos hehehe.

This was a 21 years gap photo:

Happy 78th birthday, you're gonna live till a ripe old age. Stop being an emotional grandma. Thank you for all that you've taught. I'll always be someone better with the right beliefs & values you've taught me. To understand what's life all about, & to forgive generously. Loving you always. 

I told him not to struggle

We sent him in the hospital & was critically ill. He was just sleeping all the time though we could feel his heartbeat. 

He was hospitalized for several days & his condition didn't get better. His temperature is too low his on heat pack just to keep him going. 

Mummy came to pick me right after work to see him in the hospital. My heart broke.

We've all been sobbing late nights. Silly Debby who usually isn't aware of anything came to comfort me by snuggling me that night when I broke down. She knew smth about Korkor isn't right. 

Didn't go to work for days. Mummy & I visited boyboy but he could hardly walk. We found there were a lot of blood clots in his diapers. The vet spoke to us. She said there was nth much left to help. 

We were told to put him down the day after if his condition persists. & if we could bring him home awhile to say the last goodbye. 

Everyone came to visit him. Uncle told my mum to bring the dog out of the hospital & meet him 6pm sharp. That was the 1st day of 7th month. 

He said he told my ahgong to make a trip down to visit boyboy tgt. Gonggong dotes on boyboy the most. 

Boyboy could walk & drink water on his own that night. The hospital called the following morning. His kidneys got a little better. We brought him home bcos he couldn't eat. Mummy boiled porridge everyday using a syringe to feed. We prepared at least 10 medication to feed him twice a day. 

Mummy was too tired taking care of him. I didn't sleep well for the past days waking up in the middle of the night checking on him. 

My poor baby girl has been neglected & sleeps on her own knowing we were all too tired.

My friends have been with me to keep them updated. Thankyou for visiting boyboy & making trips down for me. I knw the time is almost up. Whatever it is, passing on at home for denzy with us is probably his last wish.

There is no forever.

I remember the very first time, many years back. I found this little pup whom was the quietest amongst the rest when I visited the pet store. 

I was deciding then whether to get a long coated King Charles or a short fur jack Russell. 

This was whom I picked. & my long commitment started ever since. 

I received a call from the clinic just a couple of steps away before reaching my classroom door. My dog's kidney is malfunctioning. 

Then how? 

Then the dog will die. 

My tears starts rolling hiding behind the toilet's cubicle. 

Denzy brought back many memories when we first brought him home. Back then, gong gong was staying with us. 

He objected the idea of keeping a dog, but soon was the one who accompanied & spoilt the dog the most. 

Gonggong looked after him while I was in sch. & then he'll walk the dog to the bus stop where my sch bus will alight me. 

Denzy was really smart. It didn't take long to toilet-trained him. He loves to play just like any puppy. 

His temper begin to show. He knows how to seek "shield" whenever he did something wrong by finding gonggong or my mom bcos he knew he'd escaped the scoldings. 

"不要打它啦" gonggong will say. 

& the dog will become aggressive each time he found his "shield". I had no choice but to walk away angrily. 

He'll grabbed my clothes to the living room. Just to show around how he manage to grab my clothes & only to run underneath the bed when you shouted his name. He's an attention seeker. 

Few nights ago, I was told we don't have much time left. His tumor didn't shrink enough as what was expected. Seeing him suffer was heartbreaking everyday for my family. 

He hates his medicine. He knows in between that piece of nugget was a rlly awful taste of his med. 

He shivers so hard each time we bathed him. We wrapped him with many layers of blanket. & even warmth him with the hairdryer. 

This is my commitment. & I'm responsible for you. I'm doing what I can do best despite my regular routine of work & classes. 

& im holding this commitment to your last breath. 

You're the bravest boy I ever had.