My head's under water, but I'm breathing fine

It's never easy to be content with what you have. Work is not always smooth sailing, customers are not always easy to handle. Colleagues are not always easy to work with, but we all learn to survive & make the best outta it. This is ultimately my team I chose, & I take pride with all I could give. Do not doubt when I'm all determined. I've done more than what I'm suppose to do.

I'll live with it when I've got lower education. I've to suck it up when I've got a lower pay than others. I cannot accept when it's all about the same jobscope & I'm doing 2-3 headcounts workload on a daily basis & when they're so particular about their lunchbreaks & leisurely strolling around even at the peak hours. Which worker in the right mind will think this is perfectly fine? I can no longer give my all at work due to school. I've assignments to hand in, accountings to understand especially, but I get comments like I'm not focus enough when I make mistakes. You can blame for my mistakes, don't say I'm not focus when you know nothing of what I'm going through. One thing you learn from this is that, the more work you do, the more mistakes you make. So why am I here doing so much but all I get is critics? We all learn to work smart, but if this is what I'm taken granted of, it's not motivating. If you think I'm incapable, why not pass down my responsibilities that is not within my jobscope to others that are higher paid? Why is it always " Ask sharlene." I'm not the only senior around, doesn't mean I don't voice means it's fine. I wanna help, painstakingly explaining to my best abillity, taking over their difficult customers if I can sound more convincing. Everyone sees it for themselves how much I'm willing to do for this bank. I can have shorter lunch breaks just to comb the queue, I can break my lunch in between just to serve few more customers only continuing my lunch when the tellers can manage a shorter queue. I can take the responsibility when you want me to make sure your high counters are functioning smoothly, I can do 3x more than your tellers, I can bear my own mistakes when things go wrong. All with one condition, appreciate. I can just leave whenever I've classes, why should I always stay to help do balancing knowing your tellers are far too slow. Why do I always ended up cabbing to school just to help them pack cashbags, count their cash when I've to wait for the rest to ocp. Gimme some breathing space, I'm only human.

FATCA briefing with team:

Spent my day studying at home for upcoming quiz, I'm feeling a lil worried abt my accountings. :( Studies is still my priority for now. Work comes later. Keeping the head high. 

Just another song to keep me going,

And I'm so dizzy, but I'll be alright.