I couldn't take the stress I gave up trying to brace myself at work today. Got myself mc to take a good rest at home. Unfortunately, it didn't get any better. Set me into so much thinking and realise how tough it is being me. People work hard, I work extra hard. They succeed, I fail. People fall in love, they believe in everlast love. I fall in love, I see the ugliest truth. Why is it that things always don't go my way even though I'm trying so hard for a good change? I don't fucking understand. Can't anyone see I'm trying to tough !?
I'm starting to believe life's fucking unfair to me. I don't always make such ridiculous statements, when I do, I fucking mean it. How long do anyone wants me to toughen myself up? How difficult do you want my obstacles to be? Just fucking tell me! I had enough of facing hostile faces at work. Just one day I will breakdown and end all this. You think being tough is easy when I don't even pack my room and discipline myself everyday in the past? I make changes and put in effort to waking up every morning before 7am without fail to work. I sleep early, clean up my room, walk my dogs. I'm leading the life everyone wouldn't believe Sharlene Lau can do it. It just wouldn't go easy on me, JUST WOULDN'.T
Fuck this shit.
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