Morning thursday. Work with hiccups tonight but a good breakfast with mom after work ended was good enough to smile for. We had a good chat about life, our past mistakes every human might make. We talked about my grandparents, how these examples are gonna teach us learn as we grow.
Today, I told my mom I don't exactly have a smooth growing up. I went through a part of my life where I could just give up on my life but I did not. However, it left a deep scar that can never go away. Mummy said there bound to have broken relationships, bad communications, fights, cheatings, divorce and on... The most important factor to go through if you come across... you've got to be positive.
I know it may sound really cliche and general but deep down I totally know how it feels like. I told her this is a part of my life which I hated the most but will never gonna forget. I WILL NEVER. Cos' it impacted and changed my life since then.
At times I wonder, why. What did I exactly deserve. Never will I want to experience this ever again. I will collapse, and won't get up. Getting up once doesn't mean I've any more strength to face this again. So afraid, so darn afraid. I know I'm not over this hurt, it still secretly hurts. It feels so numb.
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