告诉自己要好

Brought the darlings for a walk today. Weather is god like. It was a good therapy to be alone for sometime. Life can be sucha beauty just breezing alone & seeing the dogs wagging their stroll. Hoping this breeze will clear my mind. 

Welcome home.

This is a familiar photo that I used to see in my everyday life. It got so comfortable, it makes my mood automatically happy just looking at them. Been missing them a lot, idk if it works for others but it rlly does help making me feel better. So glad they're back home again, welcoming me back each time I return home. From now on, they belong only to me & no one else.  Undeserving people should nv own anything like that. The thought of trying to portray themselves being good bout them rlly disgust me too much. 

I lost respect to how people like y'all live with your dignity. How can people lie with confidence, cheat feelings without shame, talking loud bout love but abusing the act of love. Fucking looking down on these guys with the bottom of my heart I swear. Good luck to your true love. My shit ends here.

I don't deny I still feel lousy at times & find myself crying. Crying not bcos of a person anymore, but the hurt that was incurred. However, I get upset with myself for many reasons. I don't deserve ill treatments when I've done nth wrong with my participation here. I don't lie, I don't cheat, I stay in every moment when I'm needed but all I get is insults, comparisons, discriminations, ignorance, judgements. & why am I still feeling hurt cos I'm not as inhuman. You don't love someone today & hurt them with your best ability tmr. That was never loving. This hate is growing. 

On a happier note,

Both my darlings out for a stroll! See how happy they are jumping for joy! :D

And this foxy is one real naughty boy, had to climb up the car for a better view. I guess he's used to sit at that position. Mama's fault for allowing him to sit so forth all the time. Sucha a naughty boy, he just didn't listen when I told him to put on his seatbelt tgt with pinky. 

So glad 宝贝们 are back home. Finally I can have a better sleep with them tonight. 

有些事情你现在不必问

April's dinner schedule

Finally slotting mookata with the zouk girls after so long. Everyone has work that faithful night except me, so glad we managed to accommodate & had our fave dinner again. 

Thanks for the surprise, I wasn't rlly expecting this as I'm rlly dressed down for the rainy weather. Our all time fave strudel is back! : 

So I got forced to take a train back with the rest, & since I was on a long off week from work I thought I had the time to travel back home. However, I've got another surprise waiting for me. Shall do it on the next post. Have a good ph rest! 

Thank you gardens, where I bloom.

Only had 3 working days this week & I'm on a good break. Coincidentally my off week clashes on my birthday, gave me more time to organize my personal arrangement. 

My manager's been very thoughtful, came in only after lunch break with a huge birthday box & reminded everyone to cut the cake for sharlene. & I happened to be in the pantry washing grapes for colleagues I overheard everything & I felt so loved. (:

The branch has been good to me whether or not I always like to complain how bad some colleagues are. Nevertheless, I'm still very thankful for the branch who gives me encouragement though I didn't rlly mention what have I been going through. This is still the place where I grow & is still learning. 

My thoughtful manager with cedele's walnut banana cake:

Sometimes I feel v loved by my dsms. Though I entered this branch being scolded all the time for the mistakes I make, I know many times they tend to give better treatment as compared to the rest. We could be buzzing like bees in the bank, but we never fail to have silly conversations in the midst of our banking hours. Moments that left me squatting on the floor laughing so hard. They're the ones who tries to help even when my cash doesn't tally & when I gave up searching for the potential customers. 

& especially to this woman below here whom I loved a lot & grateful. My direct officer who works very closely with me all the time. Always making the exception for me to choose the favorable time I wanna go for lunch, or to decide who to lunch first. Always balancing my cash earlier than usual whenever I need to rush for classes aft work. & times when my dog is sick, she'll be the one who rushes me off & allows me to let me go off asap. Times when I wasn't at the right mind to work, she's the one who hugs me when I broke down at the branch & forces me to go get mc & rest. Times when I make mistakes, she'll also tries to cover/help me or even do it for me so that I don't get more lectures. So so many things I'm so thankful for. 

Thankyou my angel:

The bits & pieces of advices, encouragement I rlly take it to heart. Colleagues telling me I'm naive, behaving likka kid not understanding how the real world works. I guess this is where I learn my lesson & grow out of it. Thanks to all who bothers to even take the effort to make a difference. 

Though the bickering doesn't stop, back office always sounds likka market. This is still the place where I can find love, & calls it home. Thankyou gardens, I'm gonna take so much pride balancing myself at work & for school. Growing for the better. (: 

The April babies.

And so we've been curious bout this trending cafe that we decide to have our April babies celebration @ wheeler's yard.

Planned to go on a shopping spree cos I've been yearning for it, it was then replaced by cafehopping. Thanks to joren  for the chauffeur, went assembly for some coffee session however it was too crowdedness. We settled the cafe next to it until our stomach grow hungry again.

Handle bar was so exciting bcos it's in the jungle! Feeling so scared despite being in the car with all the laughter. I swear I had a long day laughing with the group. The conversations just keep going. Handle bar's buffalo wings are good! 

How lovely we ended our cafehopping with a lovely dog that was all timid but keeps peeping at us when we pretended to look away. This is Cooper for you!

Some other misc:

Ended my last working day of the week. Decided to post this entry cos I foresee more photos coming for the birthday week. Gonna have a good rest tonight. 

Birthday week!

Struggled through the mundane mon blues at work. Officially left 2 more working days before my off days begins, which also means my birthday celebrations starts! No longer fancy celebrations but taking this chance to meet up friends whom I haven't catch up for long. 

Will definitely be spamming lotsa photos for the week. For now, gotta crash in for work again. Boohoo. :( 

Mid wk morn perk

It doesn't need to be more, all it needs is to keep it minimal, keep it simple. Morning perk with the Aussie boy before work. Hwaiting~!